Just the other day, as I had been musing how my life has rather taken the standstill route --- neither joyful nor tragic, I realized that I had not found the perfect word for it, but I have found the perfect song --- as always. I have a song for every week, I even have a song for the day, or for the month. And there's the songs of my life --- at least for the last twenty five years. Every heartbreak is defined by a song, and every beginning armed with its own tune. Music, as I have learned, underscores whatever we are feeling and experiencing and making it flourish better than what's already happening.
As part of the plan for the next seven months, and in an effort to make the 25th year of my life the best yet, I had to decipher what they were and give them to someone. While there were thousands of songs that served as the melody and the right words, there were these songs that have always formed part of any playlist I have ever made:
I am scared of sharing my music --- not for anything condescending, really. I believe music is mostly an independent experience, each run of the song through the ears evoke a different feeling, sometimes better or worse than the other. I have always been afraid of being judged or be implicated for liking normal or mainstream or even corny songs. Then again, what's normal nowadays, right?
So here I am, and I share with you the Tara Cabullo Playlist. Indulge me, if you will:
1. This Side | Nickel Creek | 2002. Always have been my go-to song whenever I am afraid of anything, whenever I'm heartbroken, whenever there's something I need to conquer. When I think of the word 'soundtrack,' this automatically comes to mind. Always.
2. Hey Jealousy | Gin Blossoms | Dusted | 1989. If it ever was just about jealousy, or not, I would never really know. All I know is that this is my song for the regrets I have had, all the songs I wish I did well in or people I wish I showed better appreciation for. Enough said.
What's on YOUR soundtrack?
To be continued.