Video Games and Tears

It's one of those days when I spend the entire afternoon eating gelato, sipping Bundaberg beers and sit in front of my laptop devouring fashion and design blogs. In one of the blogs I was reading, I caught an odd looking photo, nonchalantly clicked the play button and before I knew it, I was weeping.

And to think I was in the most perfect mood.

My gosh, Lana del Rey, what is with you and Video Games that can turn a perfectly calm person into a basket case? And I don't even have a reason to cry!


Swinging in the backyard
Pull up in your fast car
Whistling my name

Open up a beer
And you take it over here
And play a video game

I'm in his favorite sundress
Watching me get undressed
Take that body downtown

I say you the bestest
Lean in for a big kiss
Put his favorite perfume on

Go play a video game

It's you, it's you, it's all for you
Everything I do
I tell you all the time
Heaven is a place on earth with you
Tell me all the things you want to do
I heard that you like the bad girls
Honey, is that true?
It's better than I ever even knew
They say that the world was built for two
Only worth living if somebody is loving you
Baby, now you do

Singing in the old bars
Swinging with the old stars
Living for the fame

Kissing in the blue dark
Playing pool and wild darts
Video games

He holds me in his big arms
Drunk and I am seeing stars
This is all I think of

Watching all our friends fall
In and out of Old Paul's
This is my idea of fun
Playing video games

It's you, it's you, it's all for you
Everything I do
I tell you all the time
Heaven is a place on earth with you
Tell me all the things you want to do
I heard that you like the bad girls
Honey, is that true?
It's better than I ever even knew
They say that the world was built for two
Only worth living if somebody is loving you
Baby, now you do

(Now you do)

It's you, it's you, it's all for you
Everything I do
I tell you all the time
Heaven is a place on earth with you
Tell me all the things you want to do
I heard that you like the bad girls
Honey, is that true?
It's better than I ever even knew
They say that the world was built for two
Only worth living if somebody is loving you
Baby, now you do


Have a listen and tell me you did not feel like your heart was plucked out of your chest and tied to a runaway truck like stones. And stuck with little pins.

The thing is, it kind of illustrates a major chunk of women today: that sector that believes that doing everything for a man would win them the man. I sure had that phase, a phase I wish I never have to go back to. If I could give an unsolicited advice to anyone who's reading, love has and will always be effortless. Sure, marriage is work and all that {what do I know, meh}, but I do know for sure that if we have to fight tooth and eye to be in that person's life, then maybe it's a one way thing. No one wants to be in a one way thing. At one point in our lives, we'd shake and ask ourselves why do we give everything? We don't want to be there with nothing more to give, do we?

Monkey see, monkey do. Men will find a way to pursue the things {and people} they want, you don't even need to lift a finger or make an excuse for his behavior.

Okay, saan galing yon?


Love, light and glitters!
xx


She Likes Red Lipsticks

She likes red lipstick, fish and chips and trips to the seaside.

Some kinda oily. :D

I like things that don´t make sense

No need lies no false pretense

No pop-up polls or pasted pictures

Dreams of fame or chasing riches

I like girls who like their friends

Not chasing blokes or fashion trends

She doesn´t care if she´s looking daft

That kind of girl always makes me laugh

Oh really girl I must confess

Yeah really girl I´m quite impressed

She likes red lipstick fish and chips

Orange juice and trips to the seaside

She likes red lipstick fish and chips

Oh this girl does things for me

Alright

And I don´t mind when I look a fool

When I try being nice try and stick to the rule

Your face goes blank like you´re trying to test us

And I´ve used my bank of romantic gestures

I don´t mind when you laugh at all of my lines

I´ve tried to impress you a million times

You brush them off but you still looked flattered

My minds gone blank and my brains are scattered all over all over

And then you win be back with a look of affection

Your timing was done to real perfection

Oh really girl I must confess

Yeah really girl I´m quite impressed

She likes red lipstick fish and chips

Orange juice and trips to the seaside

She likes red lipstick fish and chips

Oh this girl does things for me

Red lipstick fish and chips

Orange juice and trips to the seaside

Red lipstick fish and chips

Oh this girl does things for me

Alright

She likes red lipstick fish and chips

Orange juice and trips to the seaside

Twenty Questions by BJG

So there's another draft waiting to be published at the haystacks but here I am and all I am capable of blogging are bullets. Or maybe single-themed thoughts. Wala lang, baka dahil Pasko. And so before I forget:

Merry Christmas!!!! xx


I've been meaning to share nice things from my Christmas weekend but I'm unusually incoherent so I will just be answering some questions from one of my favorite blogs, Bethany Joy Galeotti. Yes, of the One Tree Hill cast. Every now and then, she interviews women through her blog and the 20 Questions section, the last being my favorite OTH character, Sophia Bush, and has always been my favorite-st part of her blog. Today, indulge me as I pretend to be one of her 'guest' interviewees =P

1 Were You Named After Anyone?

Where my name comes from has multitudes of stories wrapped around it --- that Hindu etymology {Tara meaning star and Jerika meaning princess} but my favorite would have to be that I was named after Scarlett O'Hara's home in Gone With the Wind, which was called Tara Hill, where I named our home after --- Tara Hills =P Which is kind of funny, because also, there's a real Hill of Tara in Ireland. Bongga.


2 Do You Like Your Own Handwriting?
Actually, yes. People tell me I can make a font out of it and that I can use it on Hallmark cards {do people still send those? I want one!} And maybe one day I will make a font out of my handwriting. Soon.


3 What Would Your Superpower be if you could choose one?
Transport myself anywhere I want to. It would be so cool to be anywhere in the world anytime I like. 

4 Are you an Optimist or Pessimist?
Eternally an optimist but lately, I've taken it down a notch because optimism led me to become too trusting and that got me into trouble.

5 What do you collect?
Happy, unforgettable memories, the best kwento ever for my future grandkids, books I can pass on to grandchildren and stamps on my passport.

6 What movie would your friends be surprised that you like?
My Amnesia Girl. As I type this, it's trending on Twitter because it's being shown on Cinema One and most people from work were surprised that I watch Tagalog films now. I used to shy away from them especially the ones with politicians in them or really cheesy beach-singing scenes. I hated those. Philippine cinema is so much better now {as if I have a right to judge, ha!}

7 What are your favorite smells?
A newly-born baby, baby products, vanilla, green tea, the scent of people I love and lemongrass.

8 Coffee or Tea?
Coffee. I cannot kid myself to drink tea except The Spa's Ginger Tea <3

9 Wine or Beer?
Wine if I'm feeling grown up and if I'm , beer on regular days. Never together, I'm going to be really messed up then.

10 What is the best thing you've ever eaten? (Where?)
A brownie I've eaten maybe ten months ago. I forget where we got it. It was three layers of foodgasm that made me forget about a lot of things. 

11 Mac or PC?
I rarely open my laptop -- these days, if only to blog. I am usually on my iPad and at work, I use a PC with the body of a Mac. Winner lang di ba?

12 What are you listening to right now?
Florence + the Machine, Skint and Demoralised and Pitbull. Yes, I cannot get over him.

13 What career would you pursue in another life?
A fashion photographer and stylist. Sort of like Garance Dore. Or Annie Leibovitz. Wait, I can do that this lifetime. Maybe I will.

14 What sound or noise to you love?
Uncontrollable belly laughs, live music, the voice of people I love and French baby talk.

15 What sound or noise do you hate?
City sounds like bickering in the streets {during traffic jams in Manila, you'll hear so much of this}, jeepney tires screeching and incessant nagging.

16 Mountains or Beach?
The beach, definitely. This girl loves the seaside and the waves when it kisses the shore.

17 Cook or Bake?
Neither. I'd love to say I am an expert at cooking but I am only mediocre at both. I really should hone those skills.

18 Do you go to restaurants and movies by yourself?
Of course! Gone are the days that people will think you're a weirdo for going on alone-dates and maybe they would but I really don't care much. I love my own company, it's the time that I hear my own thoughts and I get inspired for my next projects thoroughly.

19 What is your favorite fairy tale or childhood story?
The Princess and the Pea.

20 What would you tell the 13 year old you?
It's not the end of the world and your life gets better each day.



If you feel like answering BJG's 20 Questions, feel free to do so and I invite you to share with me the link at the comments section. xx


Happy Holidays!
xx

Morning

Morning (Love Sonnet XXVII)
by Pablo Neruda





Naked you are simple as one of your hands;
Smooth, earthy, small, transparent, round.
You've moon-lines, apple pathways
Naked you are slender as a naked grain of wheat.

Naked you are blue as a night in Cuba;
You've vines and stars in your hair.
Naked you are spacious and yellow
As summer in a golden church.

Naked you are tiny as one of your nails;
Curved, subtle, rosy, till the day is born
And you withdraw to the underground world.

As if down a long tunnel of clothing and of chores;
Your clear light dims, gets dressed, drops its leaves,
And becomes a naked hand again.


Because a dose of Pablo Neruda in a day always makes things even better.


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